I originally had other plans for this weekend, but I decided to go to Manchester and check out the book market at St Ann's Square. This was the 3rd year of it's running and I expected big things given the excited write-up on Lit Northwest and the Manchester Libraries website.
I was disappointed. In turned out that of the 16-ish stalls, about 8 were to do with books. The others were mainly food stalls and a tent selling prints. This was a bit of an anti climax. I had expected more. But this would have been ok, had I not been totally overwhelmed by one particular lady on one particular stall. I am not going to name names, but I was really given the hard sell by the editor of a journal who insisted on not letting me have what I wanted, but selling me her own personal volume of work and reading to me. This made me feel awkward for several reasons. Firstly, I had to give it/her my full attention and I wasn't that keen on the poem but then felt the need to gush to her about it for the following long minutes. Secondly, she was openly saying that if I wanted to submit to her journal I should feel obliged to buy her work. Ok, this was said with a smile on her face but she was thrusting the book in one hand and pulling the tenner out of my other. I walked away feeling slightly cheated and I am sure her book will sit on my shelf unread for a long while.
This being said, Interzone were interesting to speak to even though I don't read sci-fi or fantasy, and I did get one of the library's book bags. So not all was lost.
I saw this unfortunate creature in Robin Hood's Bay - North Yorkshire. Retrieved from the water's edge by a zealous basset hound. Then abandoned.
Writing has been hard these last couple of weeks since Flax. I have had a rejection from one publication but they gave me really great feedback and said the poems just felt a bit 'prose-like' for that particular issue. The editor also said that they had over 2000 submissions and so I am grateful that I got such a helpful and positive email wishing me luck for future submissions.
What I am working on getting now is a shot of inspiration. Going back to the coast helped and I have a few ideas. I was particularly taken by a boat named 'Sealord'. In the mean time I am reading Paul Farley'sThe Boy From The Chemist is Here To See You.
The green green green and curved roofs under the rain. Tree spectators huddle like commuters on a platform. Endless corrugation, divided land, foxgloves near girders. Red bricks keep the land, patched and strangled. Cow parsley slip through railings and the smell through air vents in tunnels. Yarrow Mill, a redundant burner and Wedgewood blue silos - bolts as large as babies heads, a caravan of Fleetwood's, an infirmary. The wall hurls insults, like displaying peacocks, but I'm unconvinced. Browning trees close to the line, pushing large daisies and ferns. Enclaves of buttercups and rape, and still the foxgloves. Billboard my life, resurrect it for all to see. Swans abandoned in thought, haphazard on the stilled canal. Green Zone, Blue Zone, Purple Zone, Pink Zone. Always pink, the modern pinstripe and ties. That bind. Windows with dream catchers and toys stacked up. trees leaning away and haystacks precariously balance. Bridges cross the motorway into fields - hard cored rainbows that end no where. Weight Limit 32 Tonnes, chasing cars and ever the foxgloves in pink flashes. Sheep camouflage in the dirty cream summer grass. Cars in their crematorium, and truck heads nod in paddocks. Plastic forcing tunnels, corrugated ends, the flat that returns to ridges.
Some of my poems are here. "Sensual, political and, at times, wry, these poems herald some of the strongest voices in the North West, from both new and established poets."
Someone said I only talk about things I don't like. So here's more that I do...
listening to stories of WWII, people getting all serious about minutes, apologies and agenda items, little triangle sandwiches with the crusts cut off, getting to know new people and hearing something new, scientific terminology, biscuit to chocolate ratios, people who dress to match their building, sharks breach feeding, little boxes, the type of people who still send cards, post-its that stay stuck, giant calculators, cars like re-entry capsules, motionless engineering (fans not in use, desk lamps poised at an angle but not switched on), Alpaca, orderly pin-boards, being too young to remember stuff, the geological time scale, mugs with little pictures hidden inside, 03:17 still time to sleep, paintings by John William Waterhouse and the static smell of newly opened magazines.
Things I like
Working, photos (of piglets in particular), The Richter Scale, laminators, sugar, rows of red cars, banana days, Haribo Tangfastics, chocolate limes and Rhubarb Custards, Raymond Carver, writing melancholia, black Bic mediums, things from Paperchase, Wolves, wilderness, Sicilian trains, rocks that look like witches, driftwood, forearms, lists, creative business cards, irregular shaped postcards, right angles in clouds, smell of new books, national geographic front covers, candid photos, the patterned panel on the back of a payslip, working unbroken for an hour, adding things to CV, fast bikes, the BBC pips, flowers in macro, toucans and other top-heavy birds (!), peanut butter and marmite (sometimes together), pink wine, the letter B, the number 12, Mars Midnight, stars viewed in Norfolk, Bangladesh, Esmerelda in all her guises, gadgetry, wizardry, rabbits, SilvaC rabbits, discovering a link - cause and effect, low-lying cloud, memory foam, Lindemanns Bin 67 (2007), old John Paul Gaultier bottles, You Have 1 New Message, collecting things, rescuing sick animals from the street, sweet potato with Boursin, did I mention rabbits?
Things I don't like
Ginger, cockroaches, things that are larger than they really should be (airships, giant moths, tsunami's), buses, Lindemanns Bin 67 (2008), my abject lack of green-fingeredness, invisibility of people by society as they get older, celery, rubbing against wet paint, poor teaching, the sound of cotton wool, things that require an iron.
rating: 5 of 5 stars This is my favourite book of all time. I even have a tasty first edition, which is my pride and joy. It is a modern retelling of the story of Cupid and Psyche, but told from the perspective of Psyche's ugly sister, who also rules the kingdom they live in. The last time I read it was a long time ago and now as I write I can't tell you the ins and outs, I just know that the story is eternal and poignant and wonderfully atmospheric. You get transported to a strange world that is somewhere between reality and Tolkien's Middle Earth. Maybe I liked this because I could so strongly identify with the main character. When i first read this in my teens she represented everything I felt I was and everything I wanted to be. I wanted to be a strong, powerful woman but always felt like the ugly person in the room. This character transformed the way I viewed my own place in the world, through a beautifully stark narrative. C. S. Lewis is far more than religion and old Wardrobes. Read this if you want something timeless and beautiful without all the hype and sometimes dissapointment of the better known classics.